Life can be Lonely

For a few months now, I've been feeling rather lonely. I have Kevin and I love spending time with him. I have my family and his and they are all great. But lonely in friendships. My very best friends in the whole world live states away and it far and view between that I get to see them. And with everyones busy and hectic schedules, it sometimes goes a month without even talking on the phone. I have one good friend here in Cincy, Amy and we get together at least twice a month, but she has kids and I can't call her up on a moments notice to hang out or just come over. I miss Jessica and I miss Missy. But I espcially miss being able to be with them. Good, true, authentic frienships are hard to come by and we all if we are blessed have a few. They are mine. I have other friends, you know, "surface friends" who you just talk about surface stuff and never anything deep or meaningful. And then there are the one way friendships....they trust you with everything but you know you can't really count on them. I wonder sometime why I don't have many friends. I literally do not have one friend that I can call out of the blue to hang out with.....or have a slumber party with, or go out and shop with. It's been making me feel extremely lonely lately. A few weeks ago, Kevin dyed my hair for me because I didn't have any friends that could do it for me. I told him he is not only my boyfriend, but my best friend as well. And he is. But a girl needs some girlfriends! I know Kevin didn't enjoy dying my hair....he just did it because he loves me and I cried to him about it. I'm sure he wishes I had more friends as well. He is just so outgoing and can get along with anyone. I am outgoing but have trouble finding people who are where I am in life. Most of my friends have kids and families and they come first (understandably so!) I just wish Kevin and I had another couple to hang out with. I'm feeling depressed about it. A few weeks ago while driving to SC, we were driving thru NC where Jessica lives. I cried for a good hour because I wanted so badly to stop and see her. Then I went on about how I have no friends and I just wanted to spend time with my best friend. Sorry for my pity party going on here.....I just miss my friends. So, Jessica and Missy....I miss you guys and wish there was a way to make distance shorter.